Did you want to be famous?

Talking with my son, Stephen last night, he ask me, what did you want growing up as a little girl, "Did you want to be famous?" I don't recall fully...I know I wanted peace, I wanted a home that wasn't hostile, a place to feel safe and loved. As a little girl, I longed for it to be just my mother and I-- as the men in her life often hurt her and brought out the worst in her. I saw myself being in a better state. I recall the beautiful woman I saw at church and how she was loved by her husband, each Sunday I would watch her. I watched the beautiful teacher that use to park in front of our home everyday, dressed nice, a professional woman, I saw myself in her...drawn to healthy families, hanging with friends who were from homes where I felt love was there. So, my response to Stephen was that I desired a family and a home. A husband that loved me, and children that I could give "childhood" a place for them to grow up in love. That's what I wanted and still desire, these are the things my heart guards, a place of refuge from lives storms, a place of health and hope. As for me and my house, WE WILL SERVE THE LORD!

The media wasn't as strong in my day, superstars and professional athletes and their lives weren't broadcast all over the place. No tweeting and in-stagram of someone's perceived great life. There were TV shows that I would lose myself in: I was drawn to Shirley Temple, she was often an orphan only to be adopted by a wealthy loving family/father. Often losing myself in imagination with the Disney stories. When the Cosby's began that painted a picture model I could see for myself. It was never lights, action, camera, never a desire to be on someone's red carpet or live my life under media scrutiny. My profession was not the thing that motivated me, I found joy in everything I did. Every job for the most part, I enjoyed doing it! I loved the many people I met and the life long relationships that were built. I was blessed with good friends throughout my life, I have been blessed to be a good friend. I have been loved...I AM LOVED!